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By Karl Ayling, Jan 20 2018 12:50PM

Whilst thinking about the content for this blog, I have consulted with renowned historian and author, Desmond Fitzpatrick, to help me to make sense of the trauma caused when man goes to war and the resulting creativity that arises amid the emotional processing. Occasionally world-class art emerges, although not always immediately.

Art has occasionally dealt with retreats. Xenophon is remembered largely from his description, in The Anabasis, of his leading the retreat of the defeated Spartan army from Mesopotamia. (I guess that the Spartan commander’s supply lines were overstretched, so far from Lacedemonia)

Another unwise long-distance attack was led by Charles XII of Sweden against Russia in 1700 and after some initial success he was defeated by Peter The Great. Charles was killed in 1718 while examining the fortifications at Frederickshald, Norway, a stray death in a fairly unimportant place. He figures, dramatically, in Samuel Johnson’s On the Vanity of Human Wishes.

The event which originally inspired this blog was another classic disaster, Napoleon Bonaparte’s invasion of Russia. Starting in June 1812 the invasion was followed by a retreat in the October of that year producing conditions of horrific, unimaginable suffering. This event inspired the 1812 Overture of Tchiakovsky - a passage of music that has not only become a classic but has also inspired the genre of heavy metal music so many people enjoy today. I remember well attending a concert some years ago where the renowned drummer, Cozy Powell played a version of the 1812 Overture whilst drumming wildly, much to the crowds delight at Wembley Arena.

Thus two invasions of Russia have inspired works of art: the third invasion, in 1941, has inspired And Quiet Flows the Don, a work of which the authorship is uncertain, due to the political pressures in Russia but nothing more to note than this.

Art is, using Wordsworth’s famous definition of poetry, emotion recollected in tranquillity. The ‘1812’ is a dramatic rendering, decades afterwards, of an event of appalling suffering. The music can recall, but cannot, of its nature, convey the suffering of those experiencing the event.

Perhaps this tells us that we should beware of too much tranquillity following a trauma lest we end with recollected emotion which does not do justice to the event.

The retreat from Moscow which caused so many deaths of civilian prisoners in addition to those of the withdrawing forces was a true happening and took on another depth of character through being described in history.

At the time it was not yet a legend, that is, something about which things have been written – it was merely a terrible inhuman event not yet given a name.

My book, Massive Power Massive Love is another example of art emerging from trauma, written many years after traumatic events for which, I am grateful for ability of 21st century therapy and a strong faith in helping a robust sanity emerge from PTSD.

By Karl Ayling, Sep 29 2017 08:22PM

During early winter this year, a friend at church was giving away some sunflower seeds, mainly to the children and young people. I spotted an opportunity to try to cultivate one so with permission, I picked up three of the seeds and planted them into a small pot.

A few weeks went by and a couple of shoots began to show themselves - two of the three had started to grow. After another couple of weeks around Easter time they were big enough to plant into the garden.

I chose a spot in between the potatoes and the green beans. At first they competed with each other in reaching for the sky - being well fed and watered, I thought they were doing well.

Then one morning, I went out to inspect their growth progress and one had been broken in half and was no longer viable (maybe a bird had walked past or tried to eat it).

The last remaining sunflower was all alone with my hopes for it hinging on my expectation that I would at least see it get to a few feet high and maybe produce one head for the coming summer.

How Wrong Can You Be?

Other than regular tomato feed and watering it when I watered the rest of the veg patch this sunflower was left to reach its own potential.

The eagle eyed among you will have noticed a picture posted along with this blog.

At the time of writing and after much social media mirth at my regular progress updates, this sunflower grown from a single seed (the last survivor) now stands a magnificent six feet over my six foot fence.

It has 35 heads in various stages of development with more to come. Truly a magnificent specimen of its kind - people are asking me to save the seeds for them.

Its potential was locked away dormant for months awaiting an opportunity to bloom. How many of us can say the same thing of our lives? Not much in the early days, but, just as it says in the Bible, the end of a matter is better than the beginning (Ecc 7 v8)

Further than this analogy, though I think there is also a lesson here in the nature of choice.

Choosing vs Deciding

Notice that in the opening paragraph of this blog I chose to be a little cheeky and ask my friend for some of the sunflower seeds. Examples of the fruit of this choice appear throughout. What is the difference between a choice and a decision? Life.

One is life giving (and of light) and one is death giving and of the dark.

Let me explain.

The word, decide belongs to a family of words that in their earliest use come from the Greek and mean to kill off. For example, matricide, patricide, infanticide, genocide - and decide.

By making a decision we are killing off the option in ontological language of selecting anything else. yet, by simply choosing to make a choice, as I did in cultivating the sunflower seed or choosing to be a caring, sharing loving husband, father, person I can hold myself to account, be responsible for my actions (choices) and endeavour to learn and move forward intentionally.

In the Message Bible and in the Book of Proverbs, the introduction exalts us to embrace wisdom, to live skillfully to cultivate emotions and attitudes within us that make for peace. It challenges us to live with a robust sanity.

Part of how we can do this is in the use of language and the active comprehending and understanding of it in the here and now of the present where peace, love and joy reside.

Bye for now

God bless


By Karl Ayling, Jul 19 2017 08:23PM

All war is pointless and a recent one, the Vietnam war was completely meaningless (opium anyone) Today the US has around 2 million addicts.

Americans Have Been Addicted to Prescription Opiates Forever

A new set of CDC recommendations try to strike a balance between neglecting pain and prescribing addiction.

The world's most powerful nation couldn't subdue tiny Vietnam. And, all subsequent conflicts that have utilised western military capacity have been at best, inconclusive and at worst a sign of western global corruption. Prior to WWII there was a greater societal affinity to faith, family and religion the exponential decline of which has seen an explosion of alternative beliefs such as humanism, spiritism and individualism. Globalisation knew no bounds, until fairly recently, when the Brexit vote, turmoil in southern Europe and the election of a non-politician as President are but some of the indicators that the western electorate may want more change, more quickly than the establishment can cede.

Religious affiliation has been in steep decline in the western world especially western Europe and north America. At the same time there is significant growth in other parts of the world. Islam is expected to become the world's largest religion by 2075, and Christianity is booming in sub-Saharan Africa, Latin America and China.

In the UK a watershed in national life has been reached. For the first time in recorded history, those declaring themselves to have no religion have exceeded the number of Christians in Britain. Some 44 per cent of the population consider themselves a Christian, 8 per cent follow another religion and 48 per cent follow none. The decline of Christianity is perhaps the biggest single change in Britain over the past century. For some time, it has been a stretch to describe Britain as a Christian country. We can more accurately be described now as a secular nation with fading Christian institutions. Thanks to The Guardian survey.

So what if anything has filled the gap?

I started to have a little dig around as I suspected that Islam has partly filled the void and found that the first Mosque built in the UK was in leafy Woking in Surrey in 1889 – even more surprising is that it was built by a Jew. Here's a link that contains some more detail;


The Shah Jahan Mosque, was built in 1889 by Dr Gottleib Wilhelm Leitner. From my research it was the first mosque to be built in the western world – UK, Northern Europe or North America. The mosque is situated on Oriental Road in Woking, about three quarters of a mile from the railway station and town centre.

Today the mosque has the honour of being listed as a historical Grade 2 listed building.

Another driving force in the general rise of secularisation the embrace of the cult of individualism is the break-up of the traditional family isolating particularly young people and the elderly. For a couple of generations young people have tended not to want to take up their parents religiosity and I believe that it is this that has led to the explosion of humanistic thinking which barely acknowledges anything spiritual. The evidence of the wide spread use of narcotics in the western world seems to me to point towards self-healing of the deep emotional pain that brokenness brings. Therapy costs money and suits only a small part of the population.

Another perhaps more alarming fact that perplexes me is the ever widening gap of wealth distribution across the developed world. In 1800 the average person earned four times less than the highest earner. Today this is more like 15-20 times and growing. Follow the strands of these thoughts for a moment, look at recent riots in France, Germany and Sweden and a revolution could be on the cards within the next hundred years?

I will close with a couple of quotes that are helping me to deepen my thinking;

Socrates' (never) said – 'I can't hope to teach a man anything. All I can do is to hope to make him think.' Bruce Lee said, 'The most dangerous man in the world is the one who listens, observes and thinks.'

Bye for now

God bless


By Karl Ayling, Mar 7 2017 09:15PM

As I sat down to write this blog, I’m not at all sure what to call it. There are two strands of recent inspiration - the first, learning about the concept of Countertransference (and how it effects all of us in a variety of ways) and the second was a recommendation to watch Deeyah Khan’s TED Talk called; What We Don’t Know About Europe’s Muslim Kids.

So, I am going to combine my thoughts and musings into what I hope merges into a coherent whole, let’s see.

Starting with Countertransference; those of you who have read one or two of my blogs will know that I’m a Penticostal Evangelical Christian – my faith in Jesus has, over the last several years contributed to miraculous healing from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD). My Twitter account calls me a survivor of CSA – Childhood Sexual Assault and an ex-addict.

What is perhaps less well known is that my book, Massive Power Massive Love was largely written from the inspiration contained in my trauma diary, kept during some 350 hours of psychotherapy & counselling over several years.

The marketing and media work that I have undertaken in the promotion of this book of Psalmic poetry has, over time, given me the confidence to consider re-training. So when an opportunity opened up recently to attend Chichester University to study Psychotherapy & Counselling - off I went.

As part of my studies, I've come across a book called 'Countertransference and the Treatment of Trauma' by Dr C J Dalenberg. Cross referencing this book with the research available on the subject at Wikipedia;

Countertransference - Wikipedia

I am starting to come to the conclusion that as human beings, our communication, innerspeak to ourselves, and our interaction with others, can and does become strongly influenced by our own traumas and our reactions to them mingled with the other persons experiences of traums and their reactions to them. Over time, we forget something important, something significant which happened to help mold us, that has us respond to stimuli in a certain way, sort of a locked-in automatic response.

I remain indebted to the counsellors who captured this element of myself and permitted me to steer towards wholeness and a set-change / revision of who I am to me that helped me to relate to others in a more wholesome, healed, warm and adult way.

Which brings me to Deeyah Khan’s TED Talk which you can see here;

Deeyah Khan: What we don't know about Europe's Muslim kids

As the child of an Afghan mother and Pakistani father raised in Norway, Deeyah Khan knows what it's like to ...

The reason for including this section in this blog is that upon watching the video I became intimately aware that my long held judgments, assessments and opinions indeed prejudices, were juvenile at best and really didn’t help to serve me as a communicator to describe what I feel about the obvious traumas that immigrants and refugees have endured in order to find a small part of a more peaceful nation in which to escape or settle.

The video explains the nuclear family traumas rent upon the younger generation by extreme control and manipulation by the largely patriarchal figures / parents / family which sends predominately young people and converts into the hands of extremists. Extremists who offer a listening ear, acceptance, camaraderie, a hope for self-e_xpression and eventually martyrdom - check out the video, I’m not really doing it justice here.

It touched me sufficiently to combine consideration of my own experiences of trauma with that of others and eventually to emerge with empathy for others, others who are perhaps alien to me, yet still human beings who have also suffered much and are seeking something else, something different from what went before them.

Resistance to change is futile – we all die in the end. It is what happens before then that we have a choice in.

A caring, sharing, loving sentient adult will not make the same choices as a traumatised person suffering the pain of unimaginable horrors. Healing from traumas takes time, it is a journey, ongoing throughout life. Some never start the journey. My hope is that some will start the inquiry into inner healing having seen this blog.

Bye for now

God bless


By Karl Ayling, Jan 14 2017 05:26PM

No not the fruit, technically a herb with a yellow skin, no the bananas to which I refer are those of the stupid variety.

Read on...

A short time ago, Iran's Supreme Leader Grand Ayatollah Ali Khamenei urged the Muslim World to boycott anything and everything that originates with the Jewish people.

In response, Meyer M. Treinkman, a pharmacist, out of the kindness of his heart, offered to assist them in their boycott as follows:

"Any Muslim who has Syphilis must not be cured by Salvarsan discovered by a Jew, Dr. Ehrlich. He should not even try to find out whether he has Syphilis, because the Wasserman Test is the discovery of a Jew. If a Muslim suspects that he has Gonorrhea, he must not seek diagnosis, because he will be using the method of a Jew named Neissner.

"A Muslim who has heart disease must not use Digitalis, a discovery by a Jew, Ludwig Traube.

Should he suffer with a toothache, he must not use Novocaine, a discovery of the Jews, Widal and Weil.

If a Muslim has Diabetes, he must not use Insulin, the result of research by Minkowsky, a Jew. If one has a headache, he must shun Pyramidon and Antypyrin, due to the Jews, Spiro and Ellege.

Muslims with convulsions must put up with them because it was a Jew, Oscar Leibreich, who proposed the use of Chloral Hydrate.

Arabs must do likewise with their psychic ailments because Freud, father of psychoanalysis, was a Jew.

Should a Muslim child get Diphtheria, he must refrain from the Schick" reaction which was invented by the Jew, Bella Schick.

"Muslims should be ready to die in great numbers and must not permit treatment of ear and brain damage, work of Jewish Nobel Prize winner, Robert Baram.

They should continue to die or remain crippled by Infantile Paralysis because the discoverer of the anti-polio vaccine is a Jew, Jonas Salk.

"Muslims must refuse to use Streptomycin and continue to die of Tuberculosis because a Jew, Zalman Waxman, invented the wonder drug against this killing disease.

Muslim doctors must discard all discoveries and improvements by dermatologist Judas Sehn Benedict, or the lung specialist, Frawnkel, and of many other world renowned Jewish scientists and medical experts.

"In short, good and loyal Muslims properly and fittingly should remain afflicted with Syphilis, Gonorrhea, Heart Disease, Headaches, Typhus, Diabetes, Mental Disorders, Polio Convulsions and Tuberculosis and be proud to obey the Islamic boycott."

Oh, and by the way, don't call for a doctor on your cell phone because the cell phone was invented in Israel by a Jewish engineer.

Meanwhile I ask, what medical contributions to the world have the Muslims made?"

The Global Islamic population is approximately 1,200,000,000; that is ONE BILLION TWO HUNDRED MILLION or 20% of the world's population.

They have received the following Nobel Prizes:


1988 - Najib Mahfooz


1978 - Mohamed Anwar El-Sadat

1990 - Elias James Corey

1994 - Yaser Arafat:

1999 - Ahmed Zewai






1960 - Peter Brian Medawar

1998 - Ferid Mourad


The Global Jewish population is approximately 14,000,000; that is FOURTEEN MILLION or about 0.02% of the world's population.

They have received the following Nobel Prizes:


1910 - Paul Heyse

1927 - Henri Bergson

1958 - Boris Pasternak

1966 - Shmuel Yosef Agnon

1966 - Nelly Sachs

1976 - Saul Bellow

1978 - Isaac Bashevis Singer

1981 - Elias Canetti

1987 - Joseph Brodsky

1991 - Nadine Gordimer World


1911 - Alfred Fried

1911 - Tobias Michael Carel Asser

1968 - Rene Cassin

1973 - Henry Kissinger

1978 - Menachem Begin

1986 - Elie Wiesel

1994 - Shimon Peres

1994 - Yitzhak Rabin


1905 - Adolph Von Baeyer

1906 - Henri Moissan

1907 - Albert Abraham Michelson

1908 - Gabriel Lippmann

1910 - Otto Wallach

1915 - Richard Willstaetter

1918 - Fritz Haber

1921 - Albert Einstein

1922 - Niels Bohr

1925 - James Franck

1925 - Gustav Hertz

1943 - Gustav Stern

1943 - George Charles de Hevesy

1944 - Isidor Issac Rabi

1952 - Felix Bloch

1954 - Max Born

1958 - Igor Tamm

1959 - Emilio Segre

1960 - Donald A. Glaser

1961 - Robert Hofstadter

1961 - Melvin Calvin

1962 - Lev Davidovich Landau

1962 - Max Ferdinand Perutz

1965 - Richard Phillips Feynman

1965 - Julian Schwinger

1969 - Murray Gell-Mann

1971 - Dennis Gabor

1972 - William Howard Stein

1973 - Brian David Josephson

1975 - Benjamin Mottleson

1976 - Burton Richter

1977 - Ilya Prigogine

1978 - Arno Allan Penzias

1978 - Peter L Kapitza

1979 - Stephen Weinberg

1979 - Sheldon Glashow

1979 - Herbert Charles Brown

1980 - Paul Berg

1980 - Walter Gilbert

1981 - Roald Hoffmann

1982 - Aaron Klug

1985 - Albert A. Hauptman

1985 - Jerome Karle

1986 - Dudley R. Herschbach

1988 - Robert Huber

1988 - Leon Lederman

1988 - Melvin Schwartz

1988 - Jack Steinberger

1989 - Sidney Altman

1990 - Jerome Friedman

1992 - Rudolph Marcus

1995 - Martin Perl

2000 - Alan J. Heeger


1970 - Paul Anthony Samuelson

1971 - Simon Kuznets

1972 - Kenneth Joseph Arrow

1975 - Leonid Kantorovich

1976 - Milton Friedman

1978 - Herbert A. Simon

1980 - Lawrence Robert Klein

1985 - Franco Modigliani

1987 - Robert M. Solow

1990 - Harry Markowitz

1990 - Merton Miller

1992 - Gary Becker

1993 - Robert Fogel


1908 - Elie Metchnikoff

1908 - Paul Erlich

1914 - Robert Barany

1922 - Otto Meyerhof

1930 - Karl Landsteiner

1931 - Otto Warburg

1936 - Otto Loewi

1944 - Joseph Erlanger

1944 - Herbert Spencer Gasser

1945 - Ernst Boris Chain

1946 - Hermann Joseph Muller

1950 - Tadeus Reichstein

1952 - Selman Abraham Waksman

1953 - Hans Krebs

1953 - Fritz Albert Lipmann

1958 - Joshua Lederberg

1959 - Arthur Kornberg

1964 - Konrad Bloch

1965 - Francois Jacob

1965 - Andre Lwoff

1967 - George Wald

1968 - Marshall W. Nirenberg

1969 - Salvador Luria

1970 - Julius Axelrod

1970 - Sir Bernard Katz

1972 - Gerald Maurice Edelman

1975 - Howard Martin Temin

1976 - Baruch S. Blumberg

1977 - Roselyn Sussman Yalow

1978 - Daniel Nathans

1980 - Baruj Benacerraf

1984 - Cesar Milstein

1985 - Michael Stuart Brown

1985 - Joseph L. Goldstein

1986 - Stanley Cohen [& Rita Levi-Montalcini]

1988 - Gertrude Elion

1989 - Harold Varmus

1991 - Erwin Neher

1991 - Bert Sakmann

1993 - Richard J. Roberts

1993 - Phillip Sharp

1994 - Alfred Gilman

1995 - Edward B. Lewis

1996- Lu RoseIacovino

TOTAL: 129!

The Jews are NOT promoting brainwashing children in military training camps, teaching them how to blow themselves up and cause maximum deaths of Jews and other non-Muslims.

The Jews don't hijack planes, nor kill athletes at the Olympics, or blow themselves up in German restaurants.

There is NOT one single Jew who has destroyed a church.

There is NOT a single Jew who protests by killing people. The Jews don't traffic slaves, there are over 3,000,000 Christian slaves in Pakistan today, nor have leaders calling for Jihad and death to all the Infidels.

Perhaps the world's Muslims should consider investing more in standard education and less in blaming the Jews for all their problems.

Muslims must ask 'what can they do for humankind' before they demand that humankind respects them.

Regardless of your feelings about the crisis between Israel and the Palestinians and Arab neighbours, even if you believe there is more culpability on Israel 's part, the following two sentences really say it all:

'If the Arabs put down their weapons today, there would be no more violence. If the Jews put down their weapons today, there would be no more Israel."

Benjamin Netanyahu: General Eisenhower warned us. It is a matter of history that when the Supreme Commander of the Allied Forces, General Dwight Eisenhower, found the victims of the death camps he ordered all possible photographs to be taken, and for the German people from surrounding villages to be ushered through the camps and even made to bury the dead.

He did this because he said in words to this effect: 'Get it all on record now - get the films - get the witnesses - because somewhere down the road of history some bastard will get up and say that this never happened'

Recently, the UK debated whether to remove The Holocaust from its school curriculum because it 'offends' the Muslim population which claims it never occurred.

It is not removed as yet. However, this is a frightening portent of the fear that is gripping the world and how easily each country is giving in to it.

It is now more than 70 years after the Second World War in Europe ended.

Now, more than ever, with Iran, among others, claiming the Holocaust to be 'a myth,' it is imperative to make sure the world never forgets.

This like my other blogs is intended to challenge and inform and reach as many people as possible.

How many years will it be before the attack on the World Trade Center 'NEVER HAPPENED' because it offends some Muslim in the United States?

Thanks to Paul Shafe for the main text

Bye for now

God bless


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